1 Samuel 19:9
“Now the distressing spirit from the Lord came upon Saul as he sat in his house with his spear in his hand. And David was playing music with his hand.”
Like all of us, King Saul struggled with his emotions. When he looked at David, he did not see Israel’s rising star, or a man after God’s heart, but only a man who was a threat to his throne. Saul found himself filled with jealousy, fear, pride, and anger. As the story unfolds, we find these sins ultimately became his downfall. His failure was partly due to the way he dealt with his sin.
We read time and time again of a “distressing spirit from the Lord” that came upon Saul. This spirit was no doubt a strong conviction for the things he was doing wrong. Instead of allowing his conviction to bring him to repentance, Saul tried to drown out the voice of God with music. Lacking a “Walk-Man,” a CD player, or an iTunes playlist, he did the next best thing whenever conviction arose, he brought musicians in to play his favorite songs. While the music may have removed the guilty feelings and calmed the king, it failed to deal with the real issue. What Saul needed was not to feel better, instead he needed to change his behavior.
It is very common today for people to attempt to remove guilty feelings, instead of removing the actions that make them guilty. We might even run from friend to friend, or counselor to counselor, until we find someone who will tell us what we are doing is OK. While their counsel may make us feel better, it will not make us less guilty.
If you are tormented by conviction because you are involved in a lifestyle that God forbids, the answer is not to seek things that will make you feel better, but to seek to change your lifestyle. The Bible gives a clear cut way of dealing with sinful behavior,
1 John 1:9
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
If you are misbehaving, take time right now to confess your sins and allow God to forgive you and to set you free.